Stand tall!

This blogpost is gonna be about being tall. 

I'm a quite tall girl since I'm almost 6.2 ft (1.87 m).

That's quite tall especially for a girl.

I hate it. I hate being this tall.

Most people are shorter than me and tell me how beautiful being tall is.

But I'll tell you a different story. 

I'm a dutchie, dutch people are the tallest people in the world.

Even for dutch measures, I'm tall.

Which means, I'll seem even taller in other places in the world.

I'll never be able to wear heals without everyone looking, pointing and whispering. 

Normally I wouldn't care, but since even my boyfriend is a bit shorter than me, I'll never wear heals. 

I don't look cute, because I'm tall. 

People won't see me as a fragile little girl, because I'm tall. 

At least this is what I experience.

I'm bigger than most girls even though I'm quite thin.

This makes me feel really unconfortable in my skin. 

People expect me to be fine...

But just because I'm tall, doesn't mean I'm tough. 

I wanna be small and cute and fragile to.

I'm sick of being the tall tough girl, that everyone makes jokes about. 

Because she's tall, even taller than her boyfriend, taller than almost all of my friends, 

taller than most people in the world. 

And I know most models are pretty tall too!

But I'm too tall and too fat and too ugly to even be a model.

Most clothes don't even fit me. 

Cause me legs are too long or my whole body is measured differently.

So quit it, that doesn't make me feel beautiful at all.

That doesn't confort me at all.

I wanna wear heals without everyone looking and talking.

I wanna be beautiful too. 

Now I know this is whiny blogpost.

But this is what I experience as a tall person, most people don't really understand.

And of course, there are some advantages for being tall too.

But still, for me they don't weigh up to the disadvantages. 

On the other side: the grass always seems greener on the other side of the road.

So some advantages: 

I can reach almost everything. 

I can see everything, cause I can look over other peoples heads. 

My body really is tougher than a little girls body.

I won't go unnoticed.

That's all I could come up with right now.

Are you tall or are you smaal?

Do you like it?

Tell me your story!  

Volunteering

So this is my first real blogpost. And it's about my work.

I'm a volunteer at the local venue and it's awesome!

I'm working in the promotion section. Which means it's my job to promote the venue.

The venue is know as a bit of an alternative place. But really there's all kinds of music.

Though on a casual saturday night, the music is a bit more alternative and variative from the other clubs.

Also most of the other volunteers are alto's.

They're so much fun to work with and we also get a little reward for the job.

We get free entrance to lots of concerts and shows and we also get coins for drinks.

You can walk in during the day and most days there's something to do.

Decemeber is probably the month with the most 'special' events, like Sinterklaas, Christmas and New Year.

Which means we need some special decorations.

And I helped with decorating, lots of fun.

It already feels like home, while I'm working for about a month now.

So really if you're doubting about volunteering, just do it!

It's so much fun and you meet so many new people!

And if you don't like it, you can always quit n_n

Starting somewhere!

So I decided I'm going to blog. This time for real, if I like it of course.

There are so many things in my head that need to get out, even positive things. And yes that's special because I'm an extremely pessimistic person. Sometimes I have a very strong opinion on things, sometimes I just don't know and I'm most likely to go with someone else's choice.

Since I have no idea what I wanna do in the future, I'm really afraid of what may happen next.

'Cause I'm the type of person to never finish anything. Life kills.
Something I want to let you guys know is that I do use weheartit as a source for the images I use. I know it's not a very good source and I will work on something better, but for now it's my best source.

I do have a tumblr, a twitter and a facebook. I guess I'm such a socialmedia whore.

This was just my welcoming post, I hope you will enjoy my blog

~ xoxo Laeh